Her.

Close in on her intentions, make them your own,
keep her near, dont lose touch
-because she needs you more than you know.

She will mock you, ruin all your splendour,
she will seem unreasonable,
a ridiculously insane version of herself
-see past this.

Prepare your mentality for a thrashing,
let your mind be calm and accepting,
because you are no longer dealing with the girl you fell in love with
-grasp your own sanity.

No one has beat it as of yet,
conquered the disease which inhabits her,
same cant even see it
-the seperate entity.

She will try to pretend, hide it,
she has years of practice,
she is exhausted,
she wants your help...

Drain her of this vile poison,
help her to recover,

And embrace her warm heart.

written on the 1st of August, 2010

To fall in love much to easily.

You triggered my sense of reality
you gave me hope for better
you were my new love
and I severed old loves, old truths
and promises, for you.

Only to discover that you may have only been a symbol,
a symbol of excitement, promise and truth; that I am constantly chasing...
Im searching for that.
You werent it.
You arent who I imagined.
You wont love me.

I want to breathe in happiness, stare love in the eyes and feel...
wholesome...
true...
real...
real love.
But it doesnt come easy,
and chasing my own heart seems to get me in alot of trouble.
So is the saying true 'follow your heart'

Addiction comes in many forms
And sometimes even your closest friends cant see it

I no longer want to feel like a crazy person
I no longer want to struggle
I want peace
love
good sex
and loads of laughs.
But you cant have all of that, no one gets it all right?

Come find me,
make everything alright,
dont make it hard,
just show me your love.

written on the 11th of July, 2010